there's no telling what comes to you here, in life. but you can change it. change your outlook. the world cant change, so change your eyes, and you'll be suprised at what you'll find. ;)
tired -_-
Tuesday, September 2, 2008 3:17 PM
SENIOR SPECIALISTS COURSE 2008
ohh man!! im back frm senior specs!! ((: ssc rocks i tell uu!! :D:D:D:D i had a great time there (: i love my talkcock-singsong grp!! :D got 8 of us whole day talk nonstop! =P n clts kept looking at us like -_-. lols~ anw, i passed out as SSG!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D yeaaa man!~ u had no idea how FRIEKING happy i was when i received my landyard and no.3 & 4 rank wif cert! we happily marched back making so much noise!! ouhhhh all de memories!~ haha!! so happie huh- i made friends wif this really funni guy at ssc ; Vijay! if i din spell ur name WRONGLY. =P whoo man~~ we really talk COCK sia~~ haha. we were talking about constipation and HANCOCK =PP shant elaborate:D im jus super happy! oh and next week my dog will turn 6 months. ((:
anw, sad part, i quarelled wif my god-dad yst. =( im super unhappy not really all pissed. so de story goes smth like tis... : for 4 days, at ssc, i only slept 9 hours in total. tt really made me groggy and everything. had lunch wif yiwei n em. den went home. i was seriously seriously tired. n yet i still BOTHERED to sms all my teachers happy teachers day. and like he jus jumped at things, i got pissed and den we quarelled. and im super unhappy about it. :/ soo.. yahh.. i really got damn frustrated wif everything. i was really like so pissed angry n tired.. my reaction was like : wth/ i mean like. f can, i jus came home, and u still like tt. super angry. den when i hung up on him, i felt like crying. its like. wads the f use. seriously. i sms kelaoshi he very happy for me (: i told him wad happened of cox. like almost sobbing. kelaoshi din hang up on me or wadever. he was v nice bout it. he was driving but still advise me not to be upset n all. den he encourage me to keep on going. den aft hang up i felt abit better of course, den i jus called my mum and told her de FULL WHOLE STORY. and ok, went for dinner slept. haiz. tmrs comp.
btw, when i came home from ssc, i scrolled to his name, and drafted a msg. it goes like tt,
###########!!!!!, guess wad! i got staff!! im super happy!!! :D r u proud of me? hahahhs... super happy nehhs! whoo~~ ... ...
of cos i stopped. and tt this stupid tot jus flooded my mind, that y shld i sms him? why is he always de first one to know? will he understand tis msg is very significant to me? will he even care? will he share my joy? perhaps he will delete it. ohh a thousand and one thoughts jus flodded along wif some tears luhh. den i deleted de draft, and drafted another to send to my gd friend, hz. also my clt but like i tot as friends he confirm will be happy for me one. unlike de other. so i sent him a sms. reply was positive and i told him i din wanna sms him, and hz was like. aiya... he not like tt one.. oh pls hz, not as if u dun noe him. anw, only kelaoshi, hz, and 'rents shared my joy. others din, wadthehell. im jus super not in de mood le.
aft my extra lessons today, on de way i home i felt tis sick n strange feeling in my gut. i wanted to spin i wanted to vomit. i felt so like usseless. i oso dunno why suddenly like tt again. i plugged my headphones, listened to those super noisy no-meaning songs and BLASTED them to full volume up my ears. it jus flooded my head and de hurt was there, but at least it wont be anywhere else. den i felt a lil better. i bought a coke zero, ice chilled. and drank all of it at one go. den i went to sleep.
i wanna noe why, if theres nothing left in this world, will you still be in my mind?
a lil poem to end it all off,
I love the way he looks at me, it makes me go whee!!~
tis refers to NOT him cuz seriously, lots of problems are gonna arise once more, and tis time, i dunno how im gonna solve it.
if i can be stronger everyday, i wish i would have another lifetime. another feel, another life, another me so i can not jus be ME but i also can jus stop or pause time.
CLAUDIA☆
You've gotta be happy.
YOZ!
NAME: Claudia Leah See
BORN: 23.09.1993
hi there! juz wanna let you guys out there know that life- you live it once, so live it well. There's so much I wanna say about, but one stands out, and that's to live life without thinkin about how other;s think of you! (:
ohh man!! im back frm senior specs!! ((: ssc rocks i tell uu!! :D:D:D:D i had a great time there (: i love my talkcock-singsong grp!! :D got 8 of us whole day talk nonstop! =P n clts kept looking at us like -_-. lols~ anw, i passed out as SSG!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D yeaaa man!~ u had no idea how FRIEKING happy i was when i received my landyard and no.3 & 4 rank wif cert! we happily marched back making so much noise!! ouhhhh all de memories!~ haha!! so happie huh- i made friends wif this really funni guy at ssc ; Vijay! if i din spell ur name WRONGLY. =P whoo man~~ we really talk COCK sia~~ haha. we were talking about constipation and HANCOCK =PP shant elaborate:D im jus super happy! oh and next week my dog will turn 6 months. ((:
anw, sad part, i quarelled wif my god-dad yst. =( im super unhappy not really all pissed. so de story goes smth like tis... : for 4 days, at ssc, i only slept 9 hours in total. tt really made me groggy and everything. had lunch wif yiwei n em. den went home. i was seriously seriously tired. n yet i still BOTHERED to sms all my teachers happy teachers day. and like he jus jumped at things, i got pissed and den we quarelled. and im super unhappy about it. :/ soo.. yahh.. i really got damn frustrated wif everything. i was really like so pissed angry n tired.. my reaction was like : wth/ i mean like. f can, i jus came home, and u still like tt. super angry. den when i hung up on him, i felt like crying. its like. wads the f use. seriously. i sms kelaoshi he very happy for me (: i told him wad happened of cox. like almost sobbing. kelaoshi din hang up on me or wadever. he was v nice bout it. he was driving but still advise me not to be upset n all. den he encourage me to keep on going. den aft hang up i felt abit better of course, den i jus called my mum and told her de FULL WHOLE STORY. and ok, went for dinner slept. haiz. tmrs comp.
btw, when i came home from ssc, i scrolled to his name, and drafted a msg. it goes like tt,
###########!!!!!, guess wad! i got staff!! im super happy!!! :D r u proud of me? hahahhs... super happy nehhs! whoo~~ ... ...
of cos i stopped. and tt this stupid tot jus flooded my mind, that y shld i sms him? why is he always de first one to know? will he understand tis msg is very significant to me? will he even care? will he share my joy? perhaps he will delete it. ohh a thousand and one thoughts jus flodded along wif some tears luhh. den i deleted de draft, and drafted another to send to my gd friend, hz. also my clt but like i tot as friends he confirm will be happy for me one. unlike de other. so i sent him a sms. reply was positive and i told him i din wanna sms him, and hz was like. aiya... he not like tt one.. oh pls hz, not as if u dun noe him. anw, only kelaoshi, hz, and 'rents shared my joy. others din, wadthehell. im jus super not in de mood le.
aft my extra lessons today, on de way i home i felt tis sick n strange feeling in my gut. i wanted to spin i wanted to vomit. i felt so like usseless. i oso dunno why suddenly like tt again. i plugged my headphones, listened to those super noisy no-meaning songs and BLASTED them to full volume up my ears. it jus flooded my head and de hurt was there, but at least it wont be anywhere else. den i felt a lil better. i bought a coke zero, ice chilled. and drank all of it at one go. den i went to sleep.
i wanna noe why, if theres nothing left in this world, will you still be in my mind?
a lil poem to end it all off,
I love the way he looks at me, it makes me go whee!!~
tis refers to NOT him cuz seriously, lots of problems are gonna arise once more, and tis time, i dunno how im gonna solve it.
if i can be stronger everyday, i wish i would have another lifetime. another feel, another life, another me so i can not jus be ME but i also can jus stop or pause time.
